I think we all need to put aside our petty squabbles and focus on the real tumblr menace

People who have music playing on their blog

What is this Myspace circa 2005 
sick burn

Just for clarity’s sake I wasn’t just going off about that one person in particular

I just mean that whole mentality of “this isn’t worth my time to read, stop annoying me by telling me what you thought”, and anyone who espouses it
And that one post seemed to be a pretty good example of it

kawomaeda:

this has been a PSA

Jesus fucking christ

This is exactly the kind of shit I was talking about. I had a rant some weeks ago about people ‘hiding’ comments in their tags, and the response was mainly two things: Either people did it just because they preferred it that way for whatever reason (which in the end is really their business), or this, which is something that until I made that post I had no idea about. I didn’t know this shit was a thing. I had no idea people actually posted shit like this, because it just seems so fucking unreal.

This is bullshit, and the person who posted this is bullshit by extension.
This is some fucked up elitist mentality that only some thoughts are “worthy” of being made. That if your response doesn’t live up to their standards then why the fuck are you posting it? Keep your mouth shut because what you have to say isn’t worth hearing! This of course is further ingrained by the use of excessive caps and emoticons in the original post suggesting that anyone who makes a response like that is a child or an idiot, because there’s no faster or lazier way to discredit the other side than to imitate them with fevered, emoticon-littered writing.

Well I say fuck that. I produce my own content (and I don’t mean compiling TV gifsets) and I want to see everything everyone has to say. Even if it’s just AAAA THIS SCARED ME or WOWOWOW THIS IS SUPER CUUUUTE WOW, seeing that kind of response means a lot to me. It means I evoked that kind of response. That’s very flattering! And for people to want to censor others because they think their thoughts aren’t important or worthwhile enough to be read, frankly, that’s disgusting. No one should be pressured into feeling like they have to shut up especially on a subject and medium like motherfucking Tumblr. It’s like telling someone “GET OFF MY POST”.

And I mean let’s think practically about this, too: It’s not like every time someone reblogs your post AND ADDS TEXT a man comes to your door and sits you down and reads it out loud off a telegram. What happens is that the little list that shows “so and so reblogged your post” has one additional line of text on it saying “AND ADDED: [COMMENT YOU DON’T THINK WAS WORTH YOUR TIME]”. I would say it takes one extra second to scroll past but the amount of time spent scrolling that additional line is so insignificant I couldn’t even measure it. Most people who address this spend way more time complaining about it than they ever would spend being inconvenienced by having to read what people thought of their post (god forbid)

So in summation this whole toxic, bullshit mentality of “Hey plebeians who have the privilege of looking at my stuff! Here’s how you are and are not allowed to respond to it!” is awful and so arrogant I almost didn’t believe it was real
If you want to sort of stash your thoughts away in tags, I can’t force you not to by any means
But you should never feel like you have to hide your thoughts because they’re not ‘good enough’.
Especially not here.

I wanted to say, re: that big post I made not that long ago about new difficulties and not getting dentistry money back

It was mostly about shit going down with my folks, but apparently that’s all blown over? I don’t know, my parents are weird people

Anyway I ended up getting that money to cover my recent tooth extraction after all
Things are looking pretty okay here actually

Every time I feel like the worst has passed, and I’m ready to get back into a productive routine, something terrible happens

This time I’m trying to focus. It’s rather personal so I probably won’t be going into detail at least for the time being, but it suffices to say: Something very fucked up and serious happened, and it will have long-term ramifications for me and my family, but in immediate and practical terms I personally am only really affected inasmuch as that I probably won’t be seeing that dentist money I was counting on. However, I can live with that. So I’m trying to work through it by just continuing my routine. Or maybe the impact of it hasn’t fully hit me yet. Either way I’m just trying to act like nothing’s happened.

What I am worried about is my brother, whom you may know I was living with until a few months ago. In the wake of this shit, he’s being kicked out by my psycho parents, who eagerly invited him to move back with them in the first place. I couldn’t give a shit about them, but I’m just hoping he’s okay.
I know he has friends in the area, I’m hoping one of them will be able to put him up until he’s gotten back on his feet and has a job and maybe can pay them back.
Unlike before, I’m not in a position to be able to help him this time. I wish I could, but things aren’t as simple as they once were.

I just hope next time I hear from him it’s good news.

all right you caught me

there’s no such tribe as the Cochitavi

I made the whole thing up as I went

I’ve awoken from my vicodin-valium-anesthetic slumber

A few more things I wanted to mention:
I’m currently in the part of tooth removal I remember liking least from last time, where I have to keep gauze bitten down on my tooth for a long time. It’s supposed to be just 45 minutes, and then another 30 with a tea bag if it’s still bleeding, but last time I bled longer than that. I actually fell asleep (both times) with the tea bag between my teeth and woke up to throw it away in pretty disgusting condition
This time however I only slept 2 hours instead of 6 so I had to apply more gauze

They gave me anesthetic in a local gel, then a shot into the gums (which hurt a little bit, just some sharp pressure), and then ten minutes later another, long-lasting shot. I didn’t feel that one at all. Literally at all, I saw her pushing down on the plunger and I’m like “wait, that’s really in?”
The good news about the long-lasting anesthetic is that you don’t have to worry about it wearing off and suddenly being shot awake like OH SHIT OW MY TOOTH IS GONE. The downside is that here I am about 5 and a half hours later and the whole left side of my face is sloshed numb, still.

The bleeding’s mostly stopped. You do have to take some precautions: no drinking through a straw or spitting for a long time after the procedure, since both create a vacuum and can create the dreaded dry hole. Smoking’s out too (I don’t smoke). Likewise no rinsing or brushing until at least 8 hours later. Bleeding will persist for around 24 hours sometimes, though after the first hour or two it’ll just be… an ooze rather than a serious bleed. If it gets too bad, use more gauze.

It’ll hurt for a while. They give you pain pills for this. In my experience however the pain was never as bad as it was BEFORE the extraction. I have vicodin to last me for a while in case it persists. They also give you penicillin or other antibiotics to take, to prevent infection, and you gotta take those till they’re gone.

“Bone fragments may work themselves out of the extraction area over the next few weeks” - this never happened to me but sounds disconcerting, however they said it’s painless if it does.

They say you should drink a lot of fluids (not with straws) and eat regular meals as soon as possible which I hadn’t expected would be the case. Ice cream and yogurt are recommended since soft foods might be easier.

Lastly, the longest-lasting considerations for such an operation are stiffness, swelling, and bruising, which are all normal and not serious, but can last up to two weeks after the procedure.

I hope that anyone who has oral surgery coming up or is putting it off for fear of the dentist takes my tale to heart and all its details. You get enough anesthetic to make it painless, and if you can still feel even anything they can give you more, just say so. The procedure is mostly painless and the aftermath is a little awkward but not really painful. The bottom line: any pain or discomfort you have from a trip to the dentist is nothing compared to what you’ll suffer if you don’t.

If you CAN go, go. You’ll thank yourself later.

they didn’t leave me keep the tooth it was a biohzard they said it ‘s a new rule in the last year or so,

it was wiggly all the way down

just got back from the dentist, had tooth pulled

they didn’t have to cut it out this time, just yanked it, which is good because that’s about $100 less than excising it

woo

so many numbings I din’t deel a thing except of course pressure when they went in first with this thing and I could feel it crack, not painful but sorta a disconcerting noise

then they went in with pliers and kept pulling, and I could feel it, like somebody just tugging on my head, still didn’t hurt though
for a brief moment there was this pain deep down in my jaw, not a lot but just enough to be worried like “oh is that gonna really hurt when it comes all the way out”

then

pop

like a cartoon

just popped right out

so suddenly the pliers banged into my top teeth. the doctor looked really surprised, but that was it, all done

now I’m biting on bloody gauze and feeling pretty relieved

gonna put new gauze in and keep it there for 45 minutes, then if I’m still bleeding, switch to a bag of tea

and then I’ll probably fall asleep

so glad to have that over with
the procedure was painless and I’m glad it’s done
hooray

the doctor there was like “so are you sure it’s not coming from the upper tooth? Because we’re looking at the x-rays from last time and the cavity on the top is worse than the one on the bottom.”

and then they took new xrays and she was like “wow nope you were right it’s the bottom”

what you see here is a gross approximation of my x-rays, but you’ll notice that my cavity had almost reached the blood nerve itself, which is what was causing me so much pain
like literally
It was almost touching it
there’s such a thin layer of tooth over it it’s like paper

THEN the dentist said “well yeah we’re closed for spring break, and we’ve got a lot booked up…”
“so it looks like we can get you in… on… April 29th”

and just before I had enough time to scream, she was like “oh wait, unless you can do tomorrow”

between 40 days and 1 day I will take 1 day
I barely lasted the weekend like this I can’t do over a month

So I guess I’m getting a tooth pulled tomorrow! This is actually the best possible outcome and I am intensely excited to get a tooth pulled at the dentist which makes me the opposite of every child ever

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow at 4 PM to get an inspection, but then I have to make another appointment to get actual work done

They obviously won’t know what needs doing until they take a look

So it’ll be a while longer

I’ve got an extremely painful toothache due to a cavity on the side of one of my teeth

However, my old landlord said I’m getting my full security deposit back so I can use some of the money I’ve saved for rent to get it taken care of
I finally have the time, location, access, opportunity, and even money to get this tooth filled (or extracted, if that’s what it takes)

However the dentist doesn’t open until Tuesday and this set on Friday. Tuesday of course being the earliest I can call; it’s not likely I’ll get an appointment, let alone an actual procedure, the very day that I call in

So in the meantime I’m sitting here in pain that’s literally making it  hard to see straight. I’m not sure this is a 10 on the pain scale but it may be the most pain I’ve ever been in so that’s a new maximum, right? That counts as 10, logically, doesn’t it? I’m not sure how this works. The pain itself comes and goes, but when it comes it blocks out everything else. I can’t focus on anything but the pain. I rock in my seat or shift from one foot to the other and just clutch at my face as though touching it will somehow alleviate the pain.
Last night was the worst. I was taking some Ibuprofen but it doesn’t seem to have any effect at all now. I bought some benzocaine gel for numbing, which I used a few times last night. Once, it lasted an hour. Other times it would last maybe 10 minutes. Before I went to sleep it got pretty bad so I put on some more gel and nothing happened. I don’t know if it was too deep or too severe or if I’d built up a damn quick tolerance but I slathered that shit on and nothing even happened. About half an hour later I put some on again and this time it worked.

Eventually I went to bed and just lay there in pain. I could have taken more benzocaine but I realized sooner or later it’d just wear off again and the pain would wake me up, as it’s been doing. So in a test of will I just sort of toughed it out. I don’t know exactly how the night went, but time dragged on. I was so tired but pain kept me awake. Eventually I fell asleep. I slept 6 hours and woke up at least once an hour during that time. Sometimes the pain was bad. Sometimes I didn’t feel any pain, just a dullness and a feeling it could be back any second. At several points I had waking dreams where I couldn’t tell fantasy from reality and was convinced I was lying in bed with several bubble-like orbs, like videogame powerups, which held in them various states of being, including factors like pain, consciousness, and time. These states came from other people and were being swapped out for my own, which meant that when I felt no pain it was because I was ‘borrowing’ someone else’s relatively painless consciousness. It was all very strange.

Eventually I woke up, at around 6 AM. I realized I couldn’t sleep anymore. The pain was mostly reduced to a dull ache (until recently, when I tried to drink water). Painkillers seem to be helping this morning.
I know this log seems rather self-indulgent, but recording my thoughts helps me keep a grasp on this. I finally have the money to get this landmine in my mouth dealt with and I can’t do it yet. How bizarre that I have two teeth completely shattered open and instead it’s one with a cavity that’s bugging me. At this point I’m just waiting. I feel okay at the moment but I don’t know how long that will last, and when the pain comes I can’t do anything else. I can’t draw or watch TV or anything. I hope the dentist will see me if I tell them it’s an emergency. Lacking that, I hope this tooth rots and dies in the next 24 hours. At least then I’ll have some peace.

Am I undermining my more serious works (i.e. quests) by drawing so much porn of them

even as they are in progress

do i even care

Hey, I just wanted to say for the record

If you post RubyQuest fanart under the #rubyquest or #ruby quest tags (same for NanQuest #nanquest/#nan quest, and DiveQuest #divequest #dive quest)
I will see it

To all of you who have shared their love of the story with their own art, interpretations, and discussion: I have noticed! There is so much fanart and I love every piece of it. You’re all fantastic.

There is a lot of fanart, and the sheer volume makes me feel pretty flattered every day. I can’t reblog every piece, but I want you all to know, for the record, that doesn’t mean I didn’t like it. Don’t think that just because one piece got reblogged and another didn’t means that one is better than another. Don’t feel like you’ve been passed over. I wish there were a fair way to do this but I am a capricious beast and it all depends on my mood and what I read into the piece.
I just wanted to assure you all that I do appreciate everything you’ve done for me
And just remember, whenever you feel alone, or ignored, or unloved

I’m always there

Watching

Watching you

I’ll never leave you

mangneto i love you